Lyrics

[Verse]
I woke up this morning crying about something
With my head in your bright ribs
You were breathing at the speed of a sunflower's lifetime
And my fingers traced constellations still on the soft back of your neck
I never know how I found you in this galaxy of false

[Verse 2]
And we got out of bed at 9 a.m
And found ourselves in the sacred grocery store
Drones humming along with the heavy news playing on the radio
The old ladies greeted us with their war heads behind their eyes
And the forlorn grocers surprised me with gardenias for a song

[Chorus]
And I wasn't done quoting Rumi
I wasn't done getting high on callouses
We'd grown with our mouths indoors
And I know we put up "We are unwell" relics on our doors
And I don't much want to be somewhere forevermore with this core
But I wanted more time with you
In the middle of the bad news

[Verse 3]
And you tried to convince me lunch date was two words
While we drove Levi's minivan
Eating pistachio gelato too fast
Sparrows chirping at our necks
There were homemade "Bye now" signs on the side of the road
But all I noticed is how the town sign smelled of pee and love

[Verse 4]
Back home we spent the afternoon gardening
While Dad's new wife made potato frico in my old frying pan
And my baby brother usually so taciturn
Told me he wanted to join a three-person singing group
The girls you went to high school with showed up
Wearing dresses seconds away from uncollapsing off
We swung in my father's new chairs on the porch
While an old lady from church
Now in an existential music collective
Drummed so exhaustively on the rooftop of the house

[Verse 5]
And I drank two pine needle whiskeys
Without guilt before I let us drive home
And I sat real openly for you in the passenger seat
Eating small bursts of apples and baby carrots and Snap Pea crisps
The petrol station man gave gas so drunkly
Free of charge from all of his engines
While I made him get up off his knees